..do i wish i could sleep, but Alas, i cannot. So i wrote a poem instead ^^. Please Enjoy -SilentOne


More Than Ever Now as I sit, wondering
Why, I was blessed with
Such a happy life. When
Others who needed it
More, than what I could
Have had. Is sitting, like me
With nothing but a fragile
Soul.

I sit in silence, time passing
Me by, as I watch until, the
Sun rises in the sky. Tears
Threaten to fall, upon the
Soil, in what would be, the
Returning moral.

Yet now as I sit, in darkness,
I stay, looking like an empty
Shell, yet nothing but a mournful
Soul. For I had what others had
Not, the will to fight, the will to
Live, the will to carry on.

Darkness crept, by me forever,
As I sit and search for my tale,
The tale I would tell, to all those
Who cared, willing to hear, what
A poor beggar would tell.

Yet in the mists, of a storm, a light
Shone down, upon a thorn. Bloodied
And bruised within a shell, sheltering it
From more harm that it needed.

Too far gone, now am I, to share
What I wanted, with everyone,
Now must I go, away from here
To think of new ways, of making
Me known.

In deep thought am I, to hold
Such a plan, to have it all within
My hand. So greedy am I, to want
It all, so no one would feel, the pain
Of the world.

In my caring ways, I have done a
Wrong, so great that I, will never
Be the same, My caring ways, Have
I made, a world of pain, and emotionless
Days.

But now, all I want, now
In my hand, for things to
Be the same, everything
Done right, no wrong in
This night, no emptiness.

Yet now as I think,
I wish it to be, the way it
Was..

..now more than ever

... Holy cow, SO... that was awesome!
Great job! *applause*

...is my sleep... hehe... I was asked by someone to post up a poem, so i will *eyes DA* ... Enjoy -SilentOne

Gone

Where did the time go, when all
You could do was laugh and play,
Hang with your friends, day after
Day.

Where did the light go, where all
You did was think and ponder, while
Laughing at the silly faces of each
Passing child.

Where did the days go, where everything
Was peaceful and had meaning, now you
See, that there is nothing, but an empty
Town.

Ghost town of your memories will soon
Be told, by those who used, and abused
You.

Good riddance are the times you had,
To share with friends, and happier days
Where everything was perfect, you didn’t
Have to say, goodbye to it all.

Where did the time pass by to, the time you
Had to share with others, to become the
Person you are today. Where did the joys
Of life flee to, when the world crashed down
Around itself.

A hollow shell of the darker times, where did
The soldiers go, when we needed them most,
To fight for our survival, to fight for our free
Days.

Where did the days go, when everything had
It’s own special place, to sing and dance, night
By passing night.

A lonely place, of desert sand, linked within
The wrong hateful hand. The end is near, soon
Will be none. To where will you run?

A sandy place, where nothing is there, no
Helping hand, for the elder ones. Where
Are our troops, when the world fell
Down.

To where will we go, when the world
Ceases to be? To where will we live,
When our homes are burned down,

To where will we go, when ..

..all is gone?

this is a poem i wrote a few days ago.. please enjoy -silentOne


Raging Storm
There is but a storm,
Raging inside of me.

With no way of taming
The wildness of the winds
And rain, pounding down
Onto me, merciless.

I’m lost in my ways, of
Anger and pain. I’m lost
Within the sea of loneliness
I have come to call home.

With no way of releasing
The things I feel deep down
Inside, I turn to another,
To try and search…

I’m lost in my ways, of
Anger and pain. I’m lost
Within the sea of sorrow
I have come to call a
Friend..

There is but a sea of
Anger, welling up
Inside of me..

With no way of knowing
Who to trust, I for once
Follow my heart. To calm
And tame this evil beast.

I’m lost in my own desire
Of belonging, I cannot see
Clearly, what it has caused
Me to say, to do, to know,
To lose.. I’m lost in my own
Pain, never to see sunlight.

There is but a river, of
Tears flowing out of
Me..

With no thoughts, of
Caring or kindness
Left within me, I
Now search for a
New purpose..

There is but a stream,
Of emotions, churning
Deep inside of me.

With no way of showing
Those who care, what I
Really feel.. I’m no
Longer there, I’m light
As air. I’m not real..

With no one around,
To soothe my soul,
I’m lost within my
Own mind, a dangerous
And resentful place, I
Wish to free myself
From it’s grasp.

There is but a faceless
Mask, floating in front
Of me..

With no one around,
To show they care,
I am left to fend myself,
Free myself, of those who
Haunt my waking days..

I’m lost within the games
Of hate and deceitful lies.

There is but a raging
Storm, brewing inside
Of me..

..waiting to be..

….set free

Tight! >.< I love it! So dark! *waves left and right* Maybe you could write a book about this! I would buy it!

Hello, i am back, with yet another poem. It is 5 pages long and yah.. Enjoy!-SilentOne

WARNING!!!!: THIS POEM IS VERY SAD, READ WITH CAUTION AND HAVE TISSUES ON STANDBY!!! It was written because i was feeling depressed as i was once again grabbed by reality about the loss of my grandmother. If you so wish to read, then i do suggest (if you are like me and cry for sad writings such as this) that you do have tissues on standby perferrably close and within easy reach.

Years Later

How long has it been…?
How long ago did you..?
How long will it take…?

When will I feel…?
When will we learn..?
When will we see..?

How did we..?
How did he..?

Why did…?
Why is life…?
Does it…?

How long has it been…?
How long ago did you…?
How long will it take…?

When will I feel…?
When will we learn…?
When will we see…?

How did we…?
How did he…?

Why did…?
Why is life…?
Does it…?

How long has it been..
..since you’ve been gone?
How long ago…
…did it happen?
How long will it take…
…to fully heal?

When will I feel…
…whole?
When will we learn..
…to let go?
When will we see…
…that you do not suffer so?

How did we…
…forget about you?
How did he..
..move on without you?

Why did you…
…leave without a goodbye?
Why is life…
…so unfair?
Does it…
..know that you were full of life?

How long has it been..
…sense you smiled hello?
How long ago did you..
…leave this world?
How long will it take…
…to move on from the pain?

When will I feel…
…true peace inside?
When did we learn…
…that you are gone?
When will we see…
…the truth?

How did we…
…leave you behind?
How did he..
…forget your love?

Why did you…
….leave without a hug?
Why is life…
…so willingly to take a life?
Does it…
…see how much you are missed?

How long has it been…
…sense you hugged us?
How long ago did…
…the world take you away?
How long ago did you…
…forget to take me with you?
How long will it take…
…to never forget you?

When did I…
…feel calm?
When did we learn…
..you are never coming back?
When will we see…
…that you are still with us?

How did we…
…not remember you?
How did he…
…not cry over you?

Why did you…
…go away?
Why is life…
…refusing to give you back?
Does it…
…know that I’m broken?

How long has it been..
..since we last saw you?
How long ago did you..
..leave this world behind?
How long will it take…
…to fill this empty void?

When will I feel…
…you near?
When did we learn…
…to hide?
When will we see…
…that you belong here?

How did we…
..come to loose you?
How did he..
…momentarily forget?

Why did you…
..flee from here?
Why is life…
…so merciless?
Does it…
… see the tears I shed?

How long has it been..
..since our family fell apart?
How long ago did you..
…not wake up?
How long will it take..
..to feel numb inside?

When will I feel…
…nothing but emptiness?
When did we learn…
..you’re not here anymore?
When will we see…
…you’re dead now?

How did we…
…overlook it?
How did he…
…misunderstand it?

Why did you…
…leave without a kiss?
Why is life…
..refusing my wish?
Does it…
…know how lonely I feel?

How long has it been…
..since I broke inside?
How long ago did you..
…go away?
How long will it take…
…to fully accept it?

When will I feel…
…ready to let you go?
When did we learn…
…to hide what we feel?
When will we see…
…we only hurt each other?

How did we…
…come down to this?
How did he…
…replace you?

Why did you…
…go with no promise of coming back again?
Why is life…
…not fair?
Does it…
…truly know?


Years after your gone, the pain
Never fades away.. It stays with
You.. Never to leave.

Years after you disappeared…
…I have never been the same.

I’ve held it all inside, faking
To be okay… Yet years after
You fade away, the truth still
Hurts…

Why did you…

…Not take me?

I already told you what I thought of it.

But I liked it. Sad, but the structure really impacts.

Great job.

Do you..
Why did you leave, so long ago,
Without a notice, with no way
Of letting us know…

Why did you go, so far away,
Where we can’t follow..

Why did you flee, from life,
As it was, when you loved
It so much and gave it your
All?

Why would you leave behind,
A family of love, and a home of
Friends, to the bitter cold of
Sorrow filled hearts?

Where did you go, that I
Cannot follow? Where did
You take yourself, that we
Never knew you were going?

Did you not like it here anymore?
Did you not like where life was
Leading you? Did you leave with
A purpose? Did you leave with
A thought of returning? Why
Did you go, without a noticed, with
No way of letting us know.

Will you forget us? Will you watch us
Grow? Will you except us to move on
And forget about you? Will you let
Me follow? Will you let me know, where
It is that you can’t return from?

Will you remember, the good times we
Shared, the distance of the things we’ve
Done, so long ago? Will you watch us
From above, where you sit on a cloud,
Feeling nothing, but happiness, no pain
To be found?

Will you let us fight each other, until no
One is left? Will you step in and say,
“hey I’m okay”? Will you let us know,
You’ll return someday, so that we’ll return
To our happier days?

No more mourning is what
We long for, but if you aren’t
Here, its all we have to do.

Will you come back, to this war
Infested world? Will you come
Back with a hug? Will you let
Us know, where you flew off
To? Why can’t we follow?

Will you return, from the place, of
Ultimate peace? To be with us, so
We have no more grief?

Why did you leave, so long ago,
Without notice, of where you might
Go?

Why did you leave, this place alone,
With no telling of when you shall
Return?

Will you forget us? Will you watch us
Thrive? Will you except to give up
Hope?

Do you except…

..me to let you go?

I am back with another poem.. Enjoy -SilentOne


Gone
Where did the time go, when all
you could do was laugh and play,
Hang with your friends, day after
day.

Where did the light go, where all
you did was think and ponder, while
laughing at the silly faces of each
passing child.

Where did the days go, where everything
was peaceful and had meaning, now you
see, that there is nothing, but an empty
town.

Ghost town of your memories will soon
be told, by those who used and abused
you.

Good riddance are the times you had,
to share with friends and happier days
where everything was perfect, you didn't
have to say, goodbye to it all.

Where did the time pass by to, the time you
had to share with others, to become the
person you are today. Where did the joys
of life flee to, when the world crashed down
around itself.

A hollow shell of the darker times, where did
the soldiers go, when we needed them most,
to fight for our survival, to fight for our free
days.

Where did the days go, when everything had
it's own special place, to sing and dance, night
by passing night.

A lonely place, of desert sand, linked within
the wrong hateful hand. The end is near, soon
will be none, to where will you run?

A sandy place, where nothing is there, no
helping hand, for the elder ones. Where
are our troops, when the world fell
down.

To where will we go, when the world
ceases to be? to where will we live
when our homes are burned down,

To where will we go, when...

..all is gone?

As usual, a wonderful creation you have given us.Keep up the good work, no matter what anyone else tells you.

Wrote this poem because i was feeling lonely one night. It doesn't protray to anything and/or one. Please Enjoy. -SilentOne


Lonely Silence
Day after day, I wish a
special wish, hoping against
hope that it will for once
come true.

Night after night, as I lay
quietly in darkness, I weep
tears of sorrow.

Days turned to weeks and
still the stars refused to answer
my wish.

Things became foggy, almost murky
like at the bottom of the ocean.
Why didn't they tell me? Why did
they hate me so?

Tears of sadness trails like a storm
no sight of the end, just waves after
hurtful waves.

To think I was like them,
I once, aswell, ignored a
pleeing soul. but as I recall
never did I laugh.

Instead I cried, silently, to
atone my actions. To
finally be forgiven.

Am I supposed to be hated,
is that why I'm here? To
be a target all my life?

Shadows became my only friend,
the darkness became my
forever home.

Locked away in my special
home, where I never got
hurt or frowned at.

Instead I stayed, hidden,
alone in solitude. Never
to be noticed in my
home of loneliness

My lonely silence,
shall be all I wish
for now.

Truly Me

Deep inside, of this empty shell,
Lies a soul, a fragile being. Wishing
And hoping, to begin a new, the life
She wanted, but has yet to earn.

Deep inside, of this caged up body,
Lies a heart, breaking into pieces,
The tiny fragments of the life she
Had, is now in a puzzle, with so
Much to find.

Deep inside, of this crying thing,
Lies a child, so broken within. Tears
Of anger, tears of hate, stream down
My face, will they all just leave me
To my fate?

Anger and hate, churn deep inside,
There’s no way to escape, no turning
Back. Sadness and sorrow, fills this
Heart, yet even as she screams, no
One hears this heart filled sob.

A story, I could tell, of what I am,
But I will not, for it will do
No good, for this time I must,
Learn things on my own.

Happiness and love, found they’re
Way, deep within the fragile prison.
Deep within saddened eyes, locked
Inside of the hurt and the lies.

Grief and emptiness, is all what she
Feels. Grief with a loss, and empty
As a shell. For there are no others
Who could take her place, within
This heart, is where she will wake.

A dream state of mind, it’s not real
At all. She didn’t bury a loved one,
She didn’t at all. She broke down to
The ground, in a desperate plea, how
Could she leave me, with nothing
But pain?

Still, life didn’t stop, though she
Wished it would. So she could
Be forever locked in her mind.
Where she would wake, all the
Time.

Darkness shadowed over her,
A blanket of deceit and a lies
For a pillow. She swallowed
It all, without turning around.

Lies for a friend, pain for a teacher
This is where she saw what she
Did.

A story shall I tell, is indeed a
sorrow filled piece of art, that
Compared to most, would seem
That it did not matter.

Deep inside of her battered body,
Tears run free, while outside she’s
Numb.

Reality hits, hits hard and fast,
She didn’t see it coming, she
Couldn’t stop it. Life is precious,
Yet it has done, the most worst
And terrible thing to a precious
Child.

Forced to survive in a world of
War, pain and sorrow. She is
Not fit, to live in such lies.

Lies for a friend, shadows for
A home, that is where she flees,
Day after day.

The truth is seen, now it is clear,
That person inside, is really..

The lies didn’t break, no way did
They lose, such a fragile soul, a
Battered child. A heart of coal,
Instead of gold.

The mirror now broke, just like that
Heart. They melted it down, and now
She’s gone.

The truth has awoken, that broken
Heart, which lies in pieces, is really,
One of a kind..

…It was truly…

…me

Holiday Sadness

Winter comes and goes, as did you,
And one point in time, you loved
Life, you loved it to death, so why
Did the one thing you loved, so much
Have to take you away?

As the snow melted the spring songs
Sang, without you, those songs are
Now sad and lonely. As summer sprung
Up from the ground, in a desert heat, all
That was missing, was a warm hug from you.

To believe it was your time, was hard for me,
To accept , yet still all I want is you back alive.

Winter comes and goes, with passing time, it will
Always return, so why can’t you? You loved the
World so much, so much that you gave it your all
And it takes you away, as a returning gift.

Tears of sorrow, spring to my eyes, as I gaze, as your
Smiling face, a memory of old, now drifting away, how
Can I hold you, when you went away?

Holiday sadness, is what I learned to deal with, for
Without you by my side, sadness will reign my heart.

Rivers of tears, all for heart ache, drip onto the ground
In sorrow filled pain, awaiting for you, to return to the
Living, so you can live, and fix what was broken.

Family fights, are starting, now that you’re gone, the
Holidays will always be different, something will
Forever remain empty. The place you held, in all of us
Will never be filled, no matter who joins in.

As the fall leaves drop, so does my heart, as I think of you,
And your kind soul and mind. Tears of anger, spill from my
Eyes, hate for the person who took you away.

Holiday sadness…

….Winter time sorrow.

Greetings. I have yet another poem. YEt this poem was written awhile ago. Please, Enjoy - SilentOne

Who I Am You meet some people who've
said, "I've changed". Some show
it, others will not.

You see someone acting like their
so cool, but really they make
them look fake.

You have been with people
who treat you good - then
turn for the worst.

You say they change when
they really haven't. And you
know it. They never show
it.

You say I haven't changed,
yet you can't make that
claim.

I have an anger problem,
I admit that, but never
again shall I hurt others.

I have problems when it
comes to sharing who my
heart loves, I admit that,
I'm trying to overcome
it.

Yes, I'm not good within
a group, people I don't
know, and get too close
I snap.

I never was this way,
but now that I see
what I've become
I will not change it

It's who I am now,
and I will not break
it

Who I am, I cannot change

Hello, I am back with a new poem. This one is called Focus. Please Enjoy - SilentOne

Focus Focus, focus,..
Everywhere I go, the word
Echoes in my head, so far
Away it sounds, in the darkness
Of my mind.

Focus, focus..
Everywhere I look, the word
Reminds me of what I lack, So
Far into my head, I cannot find
Away …

Focus, focus..
Words that never seem
to dissipate. Echoing, screaming
For all to hear what I cannot
Achieve.

Focus, focus..
Things I need to get done,
Still sit in the darkened shadows.

Focus, focus..
The very thing I cannot do..

Focus!