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Topic: My Creations
Subject: late night poem...
Truly Me
Deep inside, of this empty shell,
Lies a soul, a fragile being. Wishing
And hoping, to begin a new, the life
She wanted, but has yet to earn.
Deep inside, of this caged up body,
Lies a heart, breaking into pieces,
The tiny fragments of the life she
Had, is now in a puzzle, with so
Much to find.
Deep inside, of this crying thing,
Lies a child, so broken within. Tears
Of anger, tears of hate, stream down
My face, will they all just leave me
To my fate?
Anger and hate, churn deep inside,
There’s no way to escape, no turning
Back. Sadness and sorrow, fills this
Heart, yet even as she screams, no
One hears this heart filled sob.
A story, I could tell, of what I am,
But I will not, for it will do
No good, for this time I must,
Learn things on my own.
Happiness and love, found they’re
Way, deep within the fragile prison.
Deep within saddened eyes, locked
Inside of the hurt and the lies.
Grief and emptiness, is all what she
Feels. Grief with a loss, and empty
As a shell. For there are no others
Who could take her place, within
This heart, is where she will wake.
A dream state of mind, it’s not real
At all. She didn’t bury a loved one,
She didn’t at all. She broke down to
The ground, in a desperate plea, how
Could she leave me, with nothing
But pain?
Still, life didn’t stop, though she
Wished it would. So she could
Be forever locked in her mind.
Where she would wake, all the
Time.
Darkness shadowed over her,
A blanket of deceit and a lies
For a pillow. She swallowed
It all, without turning around.
Lies for a friend, pain for a teacher
This is where she saw what she
Did.
A story shall I tell, is indeed a
sorrow filled piece of art, that
Compared to most, would seem
That it did not matter.
Deep inside of her battered body,
Tears run free, while outside she’s
Numb.
Reality hits, hits hard and fast,
She didn’t see it coming, she
Couldn’t stop it. Life is precious,
Yet it has done, the most worst
And terrible thing to a precious
Child.
Forced to survive in a world of
War, pain and sorrow. She is
Not fit, to live in such lies.
Lies for a friend, shadows for
A home, that is where she flees,
Day after day.
The truth is seen, now it is clear,
That person inside, is really..
The lies didn’t break, no way did
They lose, such a fragile soul, a
Battered child. A heart of coal,
Instead of gold.
The mirror now broke, just like that
Heart. They melted it down, and now
She’s gone.
The truth has awoken, that broken
Heart, which lies in pieces, is really,
One of a kind..
…It was truly…
…me
Posted on 2006-11-01 at 11:05:16.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 28
Sorry for the long wait, my dearest readers (IF no one gave up on the story through my long journey through writers block). Here is Chapter 28. It's a bit different as I strayed away from SCorpion, Bardar and Crow's Point of Views and returned to Kaga's Point of view. I found myself getting bored of my own story just sticking to three different points of view so i changed it up a bit and put back in Kaga. Bardar's little brother. So please Enjoy! -SilentOne
Chapter Twenty Eight : New Understandings
Kaga’s POV
I stood there as my elder brother left the house. I walked out of my room and saw a paper sticking out from underneath Bardar’s bedroom door. I picked it up and read some of what was written on there. I blinked in shock, He killed his own parents. Why didn’t he kill his sister too? I asked myself as I looked farther on the paper missing the other bolded line I had missed. What I read, it hurt. No wonder why Bardar was so angry and wanting to get away. I walked towards the living room seeing Dusk sitting at the couch with books and papers strewn around her.
“Hey kiddo, whatcha doing?” I asked her. Dusk looked up and smiled at me. She was my favourite family member. While I loved my brother, I held a closer bond with Dusk. She always seemed to know what was going on, when she shouldn’t know at all.
“Is Bardar coming back tonight? Is he going to get into trouble?” she asked me softly. I sighed and sat down beside her.
“ I have no idea” I told her. It was the truth, I had no idea what Bardar had planned for Crow. Or for Scorpion at that matter. I saw another paper sitting on the table and I picked it up and read it. It was from Scorpion’s hospital file. Crow’s name was signed on the bottom. I read over it, and stood up and ruffled my sisters hair and walking into the kitchen as I continued to read. As I read I vaguely heard Dusk’s call for a sandwich. I went to the counter and began to make something for both of us to eat, still reading the paper (As I had put it down out of the way of the food). Was she really that ill that he would sign such a paper. I heard the door close softly,
“Bardar?” I called out to him, hearing a grunt in response I chuckled, “Want anything to eat while I’m making something?” I asked him. I heard footsteps walking behind me and I turned my head and smiled at my brother. For this time only, I will be nice to him. Bardar looked at me and eyed the paper I was reading,
“whatcha reading bro?” He asked. I frowned slightly and motioned for him to sit as I put the sandwich I had made for myself in front of him. I called Dusk into the kitchen and she took her plate saying that she had homework to finish so she was eating in the living room. We agreed. Dusk shouldn’t here this so Bardar told her to go on up to her room and finish her schoolwork there. She complied and walked up the steps. I turned to Bardar and handed him the paper quietly,
“You were there with him. Did he mention anything?” I asked my brother. He shook his head. My stomach churned, Crow didn’t tell him anything. I went and made myself something to eat and watched Bardar cautiously,
“You read all of this?” He asked me, shocking me out of my thoughts. I nodded and sighed,
“Why would he sign such a paper?” I asked softly. Bardar sighs,
“because, If worst comes to worst. The next episode like this that Scorpion has, she dies.” Is what words flew from my brother’s mouth. I stared at him not believing what he said,
“That’s impossible, she’s stronger than that” I said. Bardar laughed,
“oh really? Then why did her heart stop earlier tonight.” He asked me as he turned and walked off.
“ Can.. Can I go see her?” I asked causing him to stop in his tracks. He turned around and stared at me.
“Why would you want to go see her, when you caused her to be in there in the first place” He asked me coldly. I glared at him,
“I didn’t mean to okay.” I yelled at him causing Dusk to run down and hug Bardar,
“please, don’t fight.” she pleaded with us. Bardar turned and walked out the door. I knew he was going back to see Scorpion. I knew he loved her. Dusk looked at me and ran up to her room slamming her door. I knew then. That I messed up big time.
Posted on 2006-10-24 at 16:26:04.
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Topic: My Creations
Subject: Lonely Silence
Wrote this poem because i was feeling lonely one night. It doesn't protray to anything and/or one. Please Enjoy. -SilentOne
Lonely Silence
Day after day, I wish a
special wish, hoping against
hope that it will for once
come true.
Night after night, as I lay
quietly in darkness, I weep
tears of sorrow.
Days turned to weeks and
still the stars refused to answer
my wish.
Things became foggy, almost murky
like at the bottom of the ocean.
Why didn't they tell me? Why did
they hate me so?
Tears of sadness trails like a storm
no sight of the end, just waves after
hurtful waves.
To think I was like them,
I once, aswell, ignored a
pleeing soul. but as I recall
never did I laugh.
Instead I cried, silently, to
atone my actions. To
finally be forgiven.
Am I supposed to be hated,
is that why I'm here? To
be a target all my life?
Shadows became my only friend,
the darkness became my
forever home.
Locked away in my special
home, where I never got
hurt or frowned at.
Instead I stayed, hidden,
alone in solitude. Never
to be noticed in my
home of loneliness
My lonely silence,
shall be all I wish
for now.
Posted on 2006-10-24 at 15:18:43.
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Topic: My Creations
Subject: Gone
I am back with another poem.. Enjoy -SilentOne
Gone
Where did the time go, when all
you could do was laugh and play,
Hang with your friends, day after
day.
Where did the light go, where all
you did was think and ponder, while
laughing at the silly faces of each
passing child.
Where did the days go, where everything
was peaceful and had meaning, now you
see, that there is nothing, but an empty
town.
Ghost town of your memories will soon
be told, by those who used and abused
you.
Good riddance are the times you had,
to share with friends and happier days
where everything was perfect, you didn't
have to say, goodbye to it all.
Where did the time pass by to, the time you
had to share with others, to become the
person you are today. Where did the joys
of life flee to, when the world crashed down
around itself.
A hollow shell of the darker times, where did
the soldiers go, when we needed them most,
to fight for our survival, to fight for our free
days.
Where did the days go, when everything had
it's own special place, to sing and dance, night
by passing night.
A lonely place, of desert sand, linked within
the wrong hateful hand. The end is near, soon
will be none, to where will you run?
A sandy place, where nothing is there, no
helping hand, for the elder ones. Where
are our troops, when the world fell
down.
To where will we go, when the world
ceases to be? to where will we live
when our homes are burned down,
To where will we go, when...
..all is gone?
Posted on 2006-10-23 at 15:55:33.
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Topic: My Creations
Subject: Do you....
Do you..
Why did you leave, so long ago,
Without a notice, with no way
Of letting us know…
Why did you go, so far away,
Where we can’t follow..
Why did you flee, from life,
As it was, when you loved
It so much and gave it your
All?
Why would you leave behind,
A family of love, and a home of
Friends, to the bitter cold of
Sorrow filled hearts?
Where did you go, that I
Cannot follow? Where did
You take yourself, that we
Never knew you were going?
Did you not like it here anymore?
Did you not like where life was
Leading you? Did you leave with
A purpose? Did you leave with
A thought of returning? Why
Did you go, without a noticed, with
No way of letting us know.
Will you forget us? Will you watch us
Grow? Will you except us to move on
And forget about you? Will you let
Me follow? Will you let me know, where
It is that you can’t return from?
Will you remember, the good times we
Shared, the distance of the things we’ve
Done, so long ago? Will you watch us
From above, where you sit on a cloud,
Feeling nothing, but happiness, no pain
To be found?
Will you let us fight each other, until no
One is left? Will you step in and say,
“hey I’m okay”? Will you let us know,
You’ll return someday, so that we’ll return
To our happier days?
No more mourning is what
We long for, but if you aren’t
Here, its all we have to do.
Will you come back, to this war
Infested world? Will you come
Back with a hug? Will you let
Us know, where you flew off
To? Why can’t we follow?
Will you return, from the place, of
Ultimate peace? To be with us, so
We have no more grief?
Why did you leave, so long ago,
Without notice, of where you might
Go?
Why did you leave, this place alone,
With no telling of when you shall
Return?
Will you forget us? Will you watch us
Thrive? Will you except to give up
Hope?
Do you except…
..me to let you go?
Posted on 2006-10-10 at 19:30:05.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: CHapter 27
Chapter Twenty Seven : The Truth revealed…Bardar Knows!
Bardar’s POV
I glared loathingly at Crow as he held his sister to comfort her. But the look in her eyes told me everything I needed to know. She was far from being comforted. Her eyes seeming to look unfocused, in a haze of sorts. It all reminded me of her. I jump slightly when someone handed me a tan coloured folder. It had.. Her name on it. I gazed at Scorpion one more time before I left the hospital promising myself that I would return the next day or later on tonight when I knew her brother wouldn’t be around. For now, I had to check on Dusk. As I walked home she ran to me and asked me questions one right after another. I got mad.
“STOP IT!” I roared out. The look in my little sister’s eyes told me that I had hurt her deeply. I sighed and knelt down in front of her. “I’m sorry kiddo. I’m just really stressed out. I’ll answer your questions soon, just give me some time to sort out my thoughts” I told her softly. I saw her nod in understanding and I walked inside the house and up to my room. I sat on my bed and looked at the folder in my hand and sighed. This had to be anything but good. I slowly opened the folder and read the first line: Young Woman Killed by a team of Assassins What was going on. They said they knew nothing of what happened to her. My mind was in chaos. I couldn’t help but read farther into her file. As I read it however, the angrier I got. I turned the page and read the other title: Parents Killed By Their Own And there I saw it. A picture, a simple drawn picture of one of the “witnesses”. A drawing of -him-. I closed the file and threw it against the wall pictures and papers falling to the floor. I stood up and walked out of my room and over to Kaga’s and pounded on the door. He opened it and stared in shock,
“yes?” he asked me. I glared in hate, yes I detested my brother but I needed him to watch Dusk. I sighed as my glare disappeared and the anger in my eyes fled, sadness and sorrow replacing it.
“Watch Dusk I have some… Business to attend to.” I said softly as I turned on my heel and walked out of the house and back towards the hospital. I waited outside in the darkened covered corner of the building. I finally saw him exit the hospital as I grabbed his arm and hauled him over to me, my eyes holding a loathing hate,
“Bardar, what..” he started but I didn’t’ let him finish. I slammed him against the side of the hospital and glared at him,
“Assassins, those are the thugs you worked for, were they not?” I asked hatefully. He nodded slowly,
“yes, but what’s this all about?” he asked me, I glare at him and get close to his face,
“I got an interesting folder today. It had the name of my deceased wife on it. I read it, and guess what I found?” I asked him, my words like acid, He gazed at me in shock,
“ no idea Bardar. Why don’t you tell me” he replied just as hatefully. I narrowed my eyes and punched him, breaking his nose.
“It had your face drawn saying that you were the one who killed her, and your parents! Do you know the damage you caused with that stunt!” I yelled in deadly rage. Crow pushed me away from him and glared,
“You have no clue on why I did what I did. Yes I do know the damage I caused with the “stunt” as you called it” he told me, his voice now sad and somewhat distant. I glared at him,
“Because of what you did Crow, I lost the one person that I held dear, and my unborn child.” I said sorrow lurking in my words. Crow stared at me then glared,
“You hurt her Bardar, I will come after you” he told me. I laughed at him,
“Are you joking? I’m trained to kill at will. I’m a military soldier. Don’t make idle threats to me, when you know you will just loose your life. I will not hurt Scorpion.” I told him as I walked back to my place.
Posted on 2006-10-04 at 12:54:36.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 26
Hello, i have finally, written chapter Twenty six. Please Enjoy-SilentOne
WARNING!: This chapter have mentions of murder, please read with caution! You have been warned.
Chapter Twenty Six : The boldness of a brother, betrayed
Crow’s POV
As I walked out of my sister’s room the night she died and was brought back, thoughts clouded my mind. I knew I couldn’t yell at her, for she didn’t know that she might not make it the next time the memories came back. But a part of me wanted to yell and scream like a child. I walked down the street and looked at the ruins of our house, now having the tape marking it as a “danger” for no one to enter. I frowned slightly remembering the night that I had come and did the worst thing possible.
It was a rainy night as I stepped into the town and finally looked upon the paper with my next target on it. My heart froze and became stone like. I walked to my house and entered it. My parents were sitting in front of the TV watching a show, laughter echoed all around me. I vaguely heard music playing upstairs in my twin’s room. Perhaps, I should have listened to her when she told me not to go. But of course I didn’t listen. I entered the room and eyed my parents,
“I am sorry” I said as the gunshot rang through my ears as I fired another shot this time aiming at my screaming mother. I turned my back and ran out of the house, hearing Scorpion’s death defying screams enter the night. I felt no remorse for my life loving sister. She would never understand. As I ran away from the place I once called home I was hauled back by my group of assassins.
“You’ve been hired again” they said to me and I followed without question. I passed my house, no, I cannot call it that anymore, I passed my twins house and ran along with my ‘team’ towards our next target . Shock fell upon me like death upon a empty soul. I gazed at -his- lover. I mumbled a quick and quiet sorry to the woman in front of me and once again the gunshot rang in my ears, driving into my mind, so I would never forget. I turned on my heel I knew I didn’t kill the wench, I just stunned her as her blood pooled beneath her. I ran for miles not stopping until I hit the darkened soil of ‘Home Base’ . I sank to my knees upon entering my room and I glared at my reflection in the mirror,
“What have I become?” I asked myself, a gruff voice answering my question,
“You became what I created in you. You are not welcome in that town anymore, and you’re sister will always hate you. You belong to me now.” he said in his normal cruel cold heartless voice. I look up and frown,
“why?” I asked him softly. He laughed coldly as he replied,
“Your parents were fools as are you. You walked in here thinking your sister will be safe. She will never be safe when we still roam. Your parents, Crow, owe us a life debt, that will never be repaid. But now it has, you have yet no where to go, but to wander the streets, for now you are free, But remember, When I call upon you, you oblige. Do you understand me?” he asked me in rage, I nodded my head, but all that got me was a swift boot in the mouth. I coughed up blood and again he asked if I understood him. I glared up at him,
“I’m finished here. I did what you wanted, now just leave me and my sister alone.” I snarled at him. He grabbed me by my hair and hauled me to my feet and threw me out onto the streets, screaming that if I ever showed up again he’d kill me, then Scorpion.
I walked towards the house, as the rain once again poured down. I soon saw me and scorpion running around as kids and our parents sitting upon the step watching us with laughter in their eyes. We were a family then, what are we now? I have always wondered what would have happened if I had stayed like Scorpion begged me to. Sometimes, I feel as though, it’s all her fault. But I know it isn’t. It’s mine. I didn’t have to go, I could have stayed. But then we all wouldn’t be where we are. Scorpion wouldn’t have a forever hidden pain, She wouldn’t even have life. For it would have been taken from her, all because of a life debt our parents owed the thugs I was hired with. I looked up at the sky and blinked as rain fell into my eyes,
“Where do we go from here? Where do we turn?” I asked the darkness, receiving no answer in return. I walked back towards the hospital to see how my twin is doing, but then I stop, I know she thinks I’ll talk, but do I really want to yell and scream as I thought I wanted to? I didn’t know anymore. Yet my feet continued to carry me towards the hospital and into the room where my sister lays. I look upon her face as she stares at me.
“please..” she started, tears in her eyes, “please… don’t yell at me” she pleaded weakly. My heart broke into pieces as I saw, a glimpse of my little sister, my kind caring sister. I walked up to her and she sat up slowly allowing me to embrace her gently, “please.. No yelling” she pleaded once again weakly. I sighed softly,
“no yelling” I agreed as I just held my sister, like I used to, before everything happened. Her next words, however, stung,
“I.. I forgive you… for killing Mother and Father..” she started with a shaky breath, “but… I still feel betrayed” she finished as sobs racked her body. And I could do nothing but just hold her, for I was the cause of part of her pain. Yes, little sister, I know now. I know I am not the one who has been fully effected by what I have done. It is you who feels the true effects of being betrayed. And I am sorry, my sister.
Posted on 2006-10-02 at 23:00:14.
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Topic: Star Trek: Discovery
Subject: Okay... here goes.....
Stardate: 2366.10.21
USS Discovery
Renor looked at her aSEC as he called upon her,
“yes sir” she replied as if she’s said it all her life. She listened intently to what he was telling her. She made a mental note to remember where she will be staying. She risked a chance to look around the transport room then quickly turned back to Lt. Rowl as he asked her if she understood what she was to do,
“affirmative Lt.” she replied then slowly left the room after he dismissed her. As she made her way to deck three she looked at her surroundings, So this is discovery huh? she thought to herself. She walked onto deck three and was given her room number. She walked in and sat down on one of the beds and sighed, who’s this lieutenant Tuvar anyways she thought to herself. She took out a small picture and stared at it. Her blue eyes gazed over the man in the same uniform she found herself wearing. She sighed again and spoke softly to herself,
“what have I gotten myself into?” she asked herself knowing that she already knew the answer.
Sighing again she places the picture back in her bag and laid down staring up at the ceiling.. Awaiting tomorrow.
((I hope that's okay. as i get more into the game my posts will become more better and have more detail in them. ))
Posted on 2006-10-02 at 19:59:51.
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Topic: Star Trek: Discovery - Q&A
Subject: FINALLY!!!
lol, i've been hyped up for this to start sense you asked me to join ^^ now..
Posted on 2006-09-26 at 13:37:42.
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Topic: My Creations
Subject: Years Later...
Hello, i am back, with yet another poem. It is 5 pages long and yah.. Enjoy!-SilentOne
WARNING!!!!: THIS POEM IS VERY SAD, READ WITH CAUTION AND HAVE TISSUES ON STANDBY!!! It was written because i was feeling depressed as i was once again grabbed by reality about the loss of my grandmother. If you so wish to read, then i do suggest (if you are like me and cry for sad writings such as this) that you do have tissues on standby perferrably close and within easy reach.
Years Later
How long has it been…?
How long ago did you..?
How long will it take…?
When will I feel…?
When will we learn..?
When will we see..?
How did we..?
How did he..?
Why did…?
Why is life…?
Does it…?
How long has it been…?
How long ago did you…?
How long will it take…?
When will I feel…?
When will we learn…?
When will we see…?
How did we…?
How did he…?
Why did…?
Why is life…?
Does it…?
How long has it been..
..since you’ve been gone?
How long ago…
…did it happen?
How long will it take…
…to fully heal?
When will I feel…
…whole?
When will we learn..
…to let go?
When will we see…
…that you do not suffer so?
How did we…
…forget about you?
How did he..
..move on without you?
Why did you…
…leave without a goodbye?
Why is life…
…so unfair?
Does it…
..know that you were full of life?
How long has it been..
…sense you smiled hello?
How long ago did you..
…leave this world?
How long will it take…
…to move on from the pain?
When will I feel…
…true peace inside?
When did we learn…
…that you are gone?
When will we see…
…the truth?
How did we…
…leave you behind?
How did he..
…forget your love?
Why did you…
….leave without a hug?
Why is life…
…so willingly to take a life?
Does it…
…see how much you are missed?
How long has it been…
…sense you hugged us?
How long ago did…
…the world take you away?
How long ago did you…
…forget to take me with you?
How long will it take…
…to never forget you?
When did I…
…feel calm?
When did we learn…
..you are never coming back?
When will we see…
…that you are still with us?
How did we…
…not remember you?
How did he…
…not cry over you?
Why did you…
…go away?
Why is life…
…refusing to give you back?
Does it…
…know that I’m broken?
How long has it been..
..since we last saw you?
How long ago did you..
..leave this world behind?
How long will it take…
…to fill this empty void?
When will I feel…
…you near?
When did we learn…
…to hide?
When will we see…
…that you belong here?
How did we…
..come to loose you?
How did he..
…momentarily forget?
Why did you…
..flee from here?
Why is life…
…so merciless?
Does it…
… see the tears I shed?
How long has it been..
..since our family fell apart?
How long ago did you..
…not wake up?
How long will it take..
..to feel numb inside?
When will I feel…
…nothing but emptiness?
When did we learn…
..you’re not here anymore?
When will we see…
…you’re dead now?
How did we…
…overlook it?
How did he…
…misunderstand it?
Why did you…
…leave without a kiss?
Why is life…
..refusing my wish?
Does it…
…know how lonely I feel?
How long has it been…
..since I broke inside?
How long ago did you..
…go away?
How long will it take…
…to fully accept it?
When will I feel…
…ready to let you go?
When did we learn…
…to hide what we feel?
When will we see…
…we only hurt each other?
How did we…
…come down to this?
How did he…
…replace you?
Why did you…
…go with no promise of coming back again?
Why is life…
…not fair?
Does it…
…truly know?
Years after your gone, the pain
Never fades away.. It stays with
You.. Never to leave.
Years after you disappeared…
…I have never been the same.
I’ve held it all inside, faking
To be okay… Yet years after
You fade away, the truth still
Hurts…
Why did you…
…Not take me?
Posted on 2006-09-25 at 00:02:31.
Edited on 2006-09-25 at 00:03:13 by SilentOne
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Topic: My Creations
Subject: Raging Storm...
this is a poem i wrote a few days ago.. please enjoy -silentOne
Raging Storm
There is but a storm,
Raging inside of me.
With no way of taming
The wildness of the winds
And rain, pounding down
Onto me, merciless.
I’m lost in my ways, of
Anger and pain. I’m lost
Within the sea of loneliness
I have come to call home.
With no way of releasing
The things I feel deep down
Inside, I turn to another,
To try and search…
I’m lost in my ways, of
Anger and pain. I’m lost
Within the sea of sorrow
I have come to call a
Friend..
There is but a sea of
Anger, welling up
Inside of me..
With no way of knowing
Who to trust, I for once
Follow my heart. To calm
And tame this evil beast.
I’m lost in my own desire
Of belonging, I cannot see
Clearly, what it has caused
Me to say, to do, to know,
To lose.. I’m lost in my own
Pain, never to see sunlight.
There is but a river, of
Tears flowing out of
Me..
With no thoughts, of
Caring or kindness
Left within me, I
Now search for a
New purpose..
There is but a stream,
Of emotions, churning
Deep inside of me.
With no way of showing
Those who care, what I
Really feel.. I’m no
Longer there, I’m light
As air. I’m not real..
With no one around,
To soothe my soul,
I’m lost within my
Own mind, a dangerous
And resentful place, I
Wish to free myself
From it’s grasp.
There is but a faceless
Mask, floating in front
Of me..
With no one around,
To show they care,
I am left to fend myself,
Free myself, of those who
Haunt my waking days..
I’m lost within the games
Of hate and deceitful lies.
There is but a raging
Storm, brewing inside
Of me..
..waiting to be..
….set free
Posted on 2006-09-23 at 09:19:25.
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Topic: Star Trek: Discovery - the relaunch (recruitment)
Subject: teh great Olan-sama.. beg?
The world is gonna end .... lol JK! please dont hurt me!!!
sorry! i'm really hyper....
Posted on 2006-09-22 at 21:39:04.
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Topic: Star Trek: Discovery - the relaunch (recruitment)
Subject: I'm special!
well.. not really hehe... i'll be quiet now >.< *skitters off to create her character*
Posted on 2006-09-22 at 21:29:54.
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Topic: Star Trek: Discovery - the relaunch (recruitment)
Subject: ...I'm interested...
*peeks in* erm.. hello.. Uhm, yah... so yah.. erm... *looks around* heh heh. i'm interested in playing in Discovery.. it's a new challenge ^^
Posted on 2006-09-22 at 20:59:51.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 25
Chapter Twenty Five : Not you’re time..
Scorpion’s POV
The pain wrapped around me like a warm embrace, I wanted it to hold me forever. However, that pain soon turned to calming darkness, that I never wanted to leave. I let it take me, far away from the pain, and the person who caused my pain, not knowing, what was happening on the outside world. My eyes drifted closed, seeking the eternal darkness, the calming emptiness. Voices sounded around me, at first they were too soft to hear, then slowly, they became to sound louder. My eyes snapped opened and I thought I was dreaming, my parents were standing around me, frowning. My father reached out and stood me up and pointed towards the darkness,
“Go back” he said to me. I gazed at him in confusion,
“I like it here” I told him sadly. Why did he want me to leave? Mother frowned and pushed me towards the same darkness as Father showed me,
“Go back, you don’t belong here, not yet” she told me softly. I frowned again, I had no idea what they were talking about,
“I want to stay” my words slipped out of my mouth without my mind thinking first. My mother gazed at me with sad eyes, “why won’t you let me stay?” I pleaded with my parents. Then, I heard more voices, I looked around trying to figure out who was saying it,
“she’s not dead!” a frantic voice called out, followed by a more mellow calm voice,
“I’m sorry sir, we’ve done all we could” the frantic voice called out, slightly softer, my mind spinning,
“don’t leave me” I gazed at my parents again they once again pushed me towards the darkness,
“It’s not your time, go back” father said as he pushed me into the darkness. Then I heard it, the soft, beep , beep, beep of a machine. I heard a soft chuckle and words, as I tried to open my eyes, trying to free myself from the darkness. Finally, I let the darkness take me, feeling a hand close over mine and a body sitting on my bed, the last thing I heard before the darkness claimed me was,
“She’s okay now” then blackness took over my world.
~~~
My eyes slowly opened, a saw a head of brown hair beside me. A smile grazed my lips slowly as I raised my hands letting them rest upon the mass of hair and stroked it softly. I felt the body stir. Worry filled eyes gazed at me, then they quickly filled with relief. Strong hands wrapped around me in a gently embrace, one that should be saved for a loved one. My arms lightly wrapped around him, my smile turned into a frown feeling the teardrops hitting my shoulder,
“Bardar” I called softly, nuzzling my forehead against his shoulder lightly, “I’m okay” I told him softly as his hold on me slightly tightened. His voice sounded in my ears,
“Never, scare me like that again” he told me gruffly. A sad smile once again grazed my lips as I nodded slowly, showing him that I understood what he was saying. He let me go, much to my surprised disappointment, when he seen Crow walk in. Crow looked at me as I stared back at him,
“hello brother” I said softly, startling him out of his trace of whatever it was that he was in. He ran over to me and scooped me up in a hug. I winced in pain as he jarred my IV needle and I pushed back on him slightly, he looked at me and saw blood trickling down my hand from where the needle lay. I smiled at him and hugged him back,
“It’s okay, it doesn’t hurt that much” I said to him, trying to make him calm down. I could see his eyes burning with relief, happiness yet a silent anger as to what would be our conversation when I was better. A frown replaced my smile as I looked down in my lap, I knew he was angry, I knew I caused it. My eyes followed his movements as he walked to the door then silently left. I looked at Bardar and arched a brow,
“he’ll be okay, I think he’s just worried” was what Bardar told me. I nod slowly and close my eyes, his next question startling me, “You died, yet you came back.. How?” he asked. I open my eyes and sighed,
“It wasn’t my time, and you were calling me” I replied softly as I let sleep claim me.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:45:49.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 24
Chapter Twenty Four : A love one’s pain and suffering..
Bardar’s POV
I gaze down at Scorpion broken heartedly. It destroyed me inside to see another person I cared about lying in a hospital bed. Wires were surrounding her, IV drips were attached to her arm. An oxygen machine was hooked up to her, as well as a heart monitor. This all reminded me of the time I was in here for when she grew ill. I frowned and scolded myself silently in my mind, Scorpion was not her. I sat on a chair that was beside her bed and picked up her hand. The monitors went off, beeping consistently in a quickened manner. The doctors came in and one ushered me,
“No, I want to stay” I called feebly as no one heard my pleas to stay. I watched helplessly from the doorway as they tried to get her stable, then it happened. An eerie calm, the signal for -that-. The long monotone of the beeping monitor tore my heart to pieces. I was in a state of shock as I looked towards Scorpion, my heart breaking over and over again. A doctor came over to me and asked if I was the girls brother,
“no, no I’m not, Her brother is outside” I said numbly. Still in shock. They gently pushed me out of the way. I couldn’t move, my body froze up, but still my legs moved on their own towards the doctors that were unhooking the wires, my voice weak, “She’s not dead!” I wailed out hooking the wires back up. The doctors stared in shock,
“we have done all we could sir” they stated to me as if I was some deranged man. I continued to hook the wires up then lay my head on her chest trying to find her pulse. I let out a sob as I gripped Scorpion tightly,
“don’t leave me” I begged the lifeless body of the girl I had grown to love. The girl who melted my once ice heart. My body began to rise off of hers as hands gripped my arms prying me off of Scorpion. I just gripped her harder, a voice entered my hazy thinking as Crow stepped in the room,
“Bardar” was what he said to me, his voice sounding sad and distant. Refusing to remove my personal from Scorpion I continued to cling to her. A doctors voice entered my mind as well as feet scurrying out of the room, assuming Crow, Scorpion, the doctor and I were all the occupants of the room I risked looking up. The kind middle aged doctor had returned and was standing there,
“well..” he started as he brought out devices that he obviously needed, “lets bring her back” his voice was light and slightly calming as I raised myself up off of Scorpion and watched with a broken heart. Crow pulled me back and we both waited as the doctor began his work.
It was a few minutes later I was aroused from my light dose to a soft and rhythmic beep ,beep beep. of a heart monitor. I looked around seeing Crow asleep and the doctor putting away the equipment,
“what?” I asked dumbfounded. The doctor chuckled at me and motioned my gaze towards the bed where a slight rustle of blankets were heard. My gaze followed his hand and I happened upon a sight, I never though I’d see. The heart monitor was beeping steadily in time with Scorpion’s heartbeat, the blankets rising and falling with each intake of breath. Her eyes were closed as she seemed to sleep peacefully.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:43:12.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chaptter 23
Chapter Twenty Three : Worry of a brother
Crow’s POV
I watched in sadness as my sister walked around the house searching for every sign of him. So she wouldn’t remember what happened the year she left. The pain -he- caused her. Today, she’s walking towards me in a fear filled manner and clung to me tightly, mumbling under her breath, to soft for me to hear the words she spoke. It broke my heart to see her this way, but it seems after a time, she finally calmed down enough to back to wandering and cleaning the house.
“hey, Scorpio” I called softly using my special nickname. I could hear the pieces of my heart, currently lying on the floor getting smashed and crushed as she turned towards me, a hallow look in her eyes as she looked past me, as if straight through me. Her form shook as she opened her mouth to talk, but only a shrill scream of pain emitting from the fragile form of my sister. I heard heavy footsteps running down the stairs, It’s as I thought. Bardar was rushing towards her as was I. My feet moving slowly as the screams continued. I turn back and see the source of why my twin was screaming and writhing in pain on the floor before me. Kaga, Bardar’s younger brother, was standing in the door way watching as if it was an everyday occurrence. Finally the screams died down, soft soothing voices reached my ears. I glared in hate to the one standing before me,
“do you enjoy causing her pain?” I asked with hate, and anger laced in my voice. Kaga laughed hatefully and walked upstairs. My anger disappeared hearing another shrill scream. I quickly turned to see that Bardar had shifted her so she was in his arms,
“we have to take her back” he said the dreaded words we were both fearing. Scorpion coughed slightly blood trickling down the sides of her mouth, it was like a really bad dream. I wanted to wake up. However, I didn’t wake up as Bardar pushed my back and led me towards the door. I heard Scorpion scream again as we both took off at a run. Thunder roared above us, oh what perfect timing. Our feet carried us as fast as our legs could go, Scorpion’s breathing slowing down with every step. Bardar’s worry doubled as had mine.
“hold on Scorpio” I called to my twin. I could see the building we were seeking just up ahead, hoping against hope that we’ll make it. As we ran, the rain began to fall causing us to sometimes loose our footing. At one time, when it was I who carried scorpion I had slipped and dropped her, causing a scream to ring out into the air. Bardar scrambled to his feet quickly and scooped her up and ran into the building.
“I’m sorry Scorpio” I weakly called as sadness and guilt laced within my words as I slowly peeled myself from the ground and walked into the building. I slowly look around then hear Scorpion’s screams from within a room. I run down the hall and quickly find them, I turn to Bardar who’s standing there trying to hold back his anger, his worry is greater than mine. I looked in the room that the screams were coming from seeing the doctors strapping her down and holding her in place, all while Bardar was growling and muttering lowly,
“They don’t have to tie her down! All they have to do is let us stay with her!” was the words he spoke like acid raining onto the open flame of a fire. I nodded in agreement, frozen in fear of what they’d do with my sister, to what Bardar had said. The screams and look of fear on my sister’s face was too much. I turned to Bardar,
“I’ll be back later, after I know she’s calm” I told him and slowly made my way out of the hospital. I walked aimlessly in the rain trying to bring myself to go back, my sister needed me. But my legs refused what my mind was telling them to do. I thought instead that it was all a dream, that it wasn’t real. That my sister wasn’t restrained and getting tubes and needles poked into her skin to figure out if she’ll survive the night.
After hours of mindless walking I found myself upon the building I had left just hours before. I slowly walked in and looked around seeing Bardar pacing back and forth in front of my sister’s room. I walked up to him slowly and sighed sadly,
“how is she?” I asked, my voice weak and soft. Bardar sighed and looked up gravely at me, something was wrong,
“She’s stable, but she isn’t responding, they won’t let me in” he said with the tone of, ‘my heart is breaking, what do you want me to say’ I frowned as I had no way of helping my fellow comrade and only friend. Instead I looked up hearing the door open and the doctor walk out. I looked at him with an empty stare. He walked over to us and sighed softly,
“She’s slowly losing oxygen and we had to put her on a machine to help her breathe. It seems that her relapse of what had happened, came back worse as her mind tried to suppress the upcoming memories. I am gravely sorry and I will try my best to keep your sister alive” the doctor said to us. Bardar walked to the window and just stared at Scorpion. I looked at the doctor and sighed,
“Is there any way of letting just him go in and be with her?” I asked. The doctor sighed and replied softly,
“Only family can see her, and even then I could only allow a few minutes” he said. I knew he was only doing his job and Bardar wasn’t really family, but I had to try one more plan to allow him to be with her. I looked at Bardar and sighed,
“he is family.” I said as I slowly backed away from the room and dropped back onto a chair and watched as the doctor finally nodded and allowed only Bardar access to my sister. The doctor eyed me and sat next to me,
“He isn’t family, is he?” he asked gently. I looked up and finally took in the features of the middle-aged man. His black hair with splotches of grey mixed in, but he had a warm calmness to him. It almost felt as if I was talking to a distant relative. I shook my head slowly,
“No, I am her only remaining family member. But he has cared for her when I was away doing my job. He cares about her deeply.” I said as I turned my gaze to my hands. I felt him put his hand on my shoulder as he stood up in a comforting way,
“She’s been in here before,” his voice broke into my thoughts, “She’ll make it out again” was all he said. I knew he was trying to calm me down, but until she woke up and spoke.. nothing could quell this festering worry and sickening pain.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:37:50.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 22
Chapter Twenty-Two : Forever pain, finally forgave..
Scorpion’s POV
I felt myself drifting away, just feeling content in his embrace. But I willed myself to get up and out of his embrace and looked around the house then smirks slightly and turn my head to him,
“I leave you for a year and you let the house get destroyed” I spoke it softly, a teasing tone to the words I spoke. I heard him grunt in reply as he stretches out on the couch. I shake my head and mumble to myself and I picked up dirty dishes from the floor and took them to the kitchen and placed them in the sink that was full of piling dishes. I frown inwardly and shake my head then fill the sink with soapy water and begin to attack the offending mess with vengeance. I heard someone come into the kitchen and a glass drop to the floor shattering making me jump at the sudden break in my silent thoughts. I stop what I’m doing and look at the one who scared me. I turn and gasp when I see..
“Kaga..” I mumble to myself as I try and get the floor to swallow me away from his hate filled glare. I forgot he was here. I tried to forget everything that happened the day I left.. Exactly one year ago. Memories of that dreadful day came rushing back causing me to drop a plate in my hand as I drop to my knees, cradling my head between my hands. I vaguely feel arms wrap around me, but because my mind was in a haze I knew not of who the arms belonged to, so I screamed and pulled away sharply. I backed away from the person who was trying desperately to come near me, I didn’t want -him- near me. My fears were over come when I heard Bardar walk through the door, his voice sounded far away in the haze of pain. I heard someone walk close to me and whisper in my ear that everything was going to be okay, no one could hurt me here.
I slowly relaxed into the warm embrace I felt myself almost drowning in. My eyes closed as blood dripped from my mouth and onto the person holding me. I heard someone grate out in hate,
“What did you do to her!?” they screamed causing me to whimper as I continued to hold my head. I felt myself being lifted up gently as if they were afraid to hurt me. I heard a familiar voice talk to me, trying to calm me down. I knew that voice, but where, I didn’t know. I spoke the first word that came to mind, the name fit the voice,
“crow” I mumbled weakly as I felt myself getting carried away from the house I could now call home. I heard someone’s feet run to catch up and heard soft talking, too tired to care what they were talking about, I tried to gain their attention as they started to yell about who was to carry me, one saying that I was his sister, the other saying they loved me. I knew now what I had to do,
“crow” I croaked out in pain, “I forgive you” I spoke it softly as darkness took me.
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Voices sounded really close, really loud. Almost like screaming.. They broke through the darkness, now as a haze holds my mind. I try to open my eyes, but as I did, blinding light shone through and I had to quickly shut them. I slowly open my eyes again and groan softly as I try to sit up then wince in pain. Suddenly someone came and pushes me back,
“lay still you foolish girl” a harsh voice sounded. I looked up and saw, someone, I didn’t know. My voice hoarse from screaming sounding scratchy like it hasn’t been used for awhile,
“where..” I paused to take a breath, “.. Bardar.. Crow?” I asked weakly. I degraded myself for my signs of weakness. I heard the person scoff and mumble then turn towards me, his harsh eyes causing me to want to disappear,
“Only family can visit you. I’m sorry but they aren’t permitted to entering this room” he spoke coldly towards me. I felt tears run down my cheeks as I felt pure anger towards this man I didn’t know. My voice cracked as more tears slid down my cheeks,
“I.. I want to see them. Please.. Let them in” I pleaded with him. My answer was clear, he wouldn’t let them in. I could see them out the door, looking in to see if I was okay. My heart clenched in pain as I watched them argue with the man in my room who went to shoo them away. I put my hands over my face and cried. I knew I was acting weak but, I wanted to see them. Finally I broke down completely trying to get him to let them in. Finally a nurse who knew my family told them they were allowed in for a few minutes. I hugged my brother then got sandwiched between them both as they laid beside me. Now I felt safe. Safe from harm, even if it was for only a few minutes. I tried to stay awake, but Crow leaned down and told me it was okay if I fell asleep, I shook my head, afraid that if I closed my eyes they’d disappear. Bardar wrapped me protectively in his arms as did Crow. Soon I let darkness take me away again.
It was dark when I awoke next, as I feared, my protectors were gone. I looked around and seen another nurse checking over me. I smiled slightly and said a shy,
“hello” my voice still weak. The nurse smiled and we began to talk, by the end of her shift we became good friends. Her name is Nef, and she was very nice. She came back with some painkillers for my head and they slowly put me to sleep.
~~~
It was a week before I was able to be released from the hospital. I was happy. My brother came and got me, saying Bardar was at work and couldn’t get it off to come and pick me up. We walked towards the house and when I entered I seen Kaga there, but was slightly shocked to see a bundle of arms and legs wrap around me,
“Scorpion!” a voice called. I looked down and saw Dusk staring up at me. I smiled down at the child and pried her off me. Kaga grunted and stormed out. I sat down on the couch and my brother sat next to me,
“You okay? The doctor said that when you try to remember what you forced yourself to forget, you’ll always have a pain and will have to go back.” was what he said. It was true then,
I forgave my brother, but I still had this forever pain.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:34:11.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 21
Chapter Twenty One : Never leave
Bardar’s POV
My eyes widened as I heard Scorpion speak - the first time she spoke since she got back. Her words echoed in my head as I turned to look at her, shocked when I felt her arms encircle me. Yes, she was home. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close,
“why did you go?” I asked. Unaware that Dusk had asked her that before. She leaned her head against my shoulder. I heard her voice muffled,
“I needed to know if I truly belonged here” was what she told me. I was confused at first but then understood. I hugged her tightly, she was safe now. I felt her move away from me explaining to me that she was going to look around some more. I chuckled softly to myself as I called out to her,
“Scorpion..” I said and smiled as she poked her head around the corner, “Nothings changed, it’s your home too” I saw her smile as she disappeared behind the wall. Yes, she’s home. I walked upstairs and knocked on Dusk’s door,
“hey kiddo, do you need help with your homework?” I asked her. I seen her shake her head as she looked at her papers lying out on her bed. I smile softly and left her alone. I walked past Kaga’s room and scoffed, “stupid brother” I mumbled to myself as I walked into my room seeing scorpion asleep on my bed. I smile and decide to let her sleep. I walked out of my room and walked to the living room. I sat down on a chair and sighed with relief. I could still keep my promise to Crow. I still remembered our conversation the day that scorpion found out has caused her to be alone.
~I was just sitting down at the table when Crow came in,
“Hey can I talk to you?” Crow had asked me. I nodded my head then waiting until he sat down. I was about to ask him what was troubling him but he beat me to it, “I need a favour done, I need you to protect Scorpion. She is still a target for my employer.” was all he told me. I was confused,
“Target? Target for what reason Crow?” I asked him a slightly bitter tone to my voice. He didn’t hesitate to tell me,
“The night the raid hit, the target was my family. Scorpion is a target because she is still alive” he paused before continuing, “The person who employed me is using me due to a life debt that my family had with him. So please protect her. Because.. Because it was me who destroyed our family. I don’t want her to suffer any more than she has already” I took in what he said vaguely hearing the door close shut. I looked him in the eye and replied,
“By my life, I will protect her” I stated. ~
My thoughts were broken when Scorpion curled up on my lap. I held her close to me and whispered in her ear,
“never leave again”
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:32:55.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: chapter 20
Chapter Twenty : I’m Home
Scorpion’s POV
I eyed Dusk as she clung to me. Now I remembered why I shouldn’t have came back here. My gaze unfocused as I started to remember what happened the year before.. When I left all this behind.
~It was a rainy cold night as I walked away from the home I had gotten used to. But as things turned out and I started to remember, I didn’t belong there. I now am searching for the place I belong. As I walked I came across a small town bordering my former village. In-fact when I turned around I could still see my village. The village I lived in for so long. But I told myself I couldn’t go back. So instead I went into the town and came across someone looking for a helping hand. In return they offered me a place to stay, I would provide my own means of eating.
During the year I stayed in the town helping different people with building, cooking, cleaning and other tasks they needed help for. Someone then came to me and said that I didn’t belong here, that they found out why I left my other village (I had told them some stuff of my past, but not all of it). They said I had to go back. So I turned and returned home, where I stayed wherever I could without showing myself to Bardar and the others. Bardar, the name struck my heart like a thousand scolding knives stabbing into my heart. I missed him. I wonder what he was doing.. ~
My attention was turned as I found myself outside of Bardar’s house. It hadn’t changed a bit. I look down to where Dusk is as she dragged me inside, it was unusually quiet,
“Bardar and Kaga wont be back for awhile. So it’s okay” was what she said to me. I nod my head and look around. I missed this place. I turn to dusk,
“Is it okay if I wonder around?” I asked softly. With her nod I went upstairs and opened a familiar door and stepped in. I looked around and chuckled to myself, Bardar hadn’t changed. I noticed some of my clothes I had left here still in the spot I had dumped them so long ago. I walked over to the bed and sat down and smiled sadly as I remembered each and every time I’d wake up in shock and fall off of it. I stood up again and walked out of the door only to run into a hard body. I look up and see Bardar standing in front of me with a shocked look on his face. I looked down I couldn’t stand to look in his eyes, not after what I did. But that wasn’t what shocked me, what shocked me was the feeling of arms wrapping themselves around me pulling me closer to him. I look up at Bardar and blink. Bardar’s arms didn’t let me go, in fact his grip got tighter as he rested his chin on top of my head,
“Never leave again” was all he said. I nod my head slowly leaning fully against him. I heard the door open then heard a familiar voice shout,
“hey! Losers, I’m home” I frowned and tensed but soon relaxed when Bardar whispered soothing words in my ear. I closed my eyes suddenly feeling tired as I began to slump towards the floor. I felt myself being lifted up and set on a bed, then my world was dark.
When I opened my eyes again it was dark. I slowly sat up and got out of bed and walked downstairs bumping into Kaga causing me to stumble back,
“what are YOU doing back here?” he asked me hatefully. I looked down not knowing how to answer. But I didn’t have to because Dusk took this moment to come in and push Kaga away,
“She’s back here because she wants to be. Idiot” was what she said. I smiled at the child in front of me and walked into the kitchen once again running into someone. A soft but deep chuckle sounded above me as I looked up and seen Bardar,
“Second time in one day you’ve ran into me” he said teasingly. I smiled slightly and finally spoke,
“I’m home”
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:30:49.
Edited on 2006-09-16 at 10:31:34 by SilentOne
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 19
Chapter Nineteen : Why did you go?
Dusk’s POV
I woke up hearing yelling and fighting going on in Bardar’s room. I climbed out of bed and made my way to my door and opened it slowly. Peeking out I seen Bardar’s door closed - the coast was clear.. For now. I slipped out of my room and walked down the stairs not seeing anyone. I went to the kitchen and got myself a drink of water then seen a note on the fridge,
To whom may read this first:
I have gone away, do not try to follow me. I don’t belong here. I wont be coming back. Dusk I’m sorry but I can no longer be your playmate. Take care of yourselves.
- Scorpion
I read over the note twice before I ran upstairs and threw opened Bardar’s door then ran in and jumped on him,
“She’s gone! She left again!” I screamed causing him to bolt up knocking me over and off the bed. I scrambled to my feet and seen the hurt look in his eyes. I climbed onto his bed and hugged him. She meant more to them, than she did to me. I knew that now, but because of her leaving.. My day got worse. I walked out of the room and downstairs. I stepped outside and looked into the tree where Scorpion always sat while she waited for Bardar to come home. I climbed into the tree and perched on -her- branch. This was my most saddest gift I will ever receive. I am 8 years old now.
I stayed in the tree for hours, not hearing the calls to come down from Bardar. I just sat there. The sun is setting now, and Scorpion still hasn’t come back. Perhaps, she was serious when she wrote in that note that she was never coming back. I knew Bardar was sad. And I knew I wasn’t helping him by staying in this tree. I seen Kaga come home, his arm in a cast. I glared down at him,
“You made her leave. I hope you are happy” I said to him as I dropped from my perch. I walked into the house and went to my room. I heard Kaga follow me into the house and let the door slam. Bardar should be home soon, only then will I leave my domain. I settled onto my bed and took out a book and started writing. My thoughts became words on paper. This is how I dealt with her leaving. Soon I found myself falling asleep in mid sentence. I let the darkness claim me. Hoping - wishing- it was all a dream.
I felt someone shake me and I slowly opened my eyes. It’s been a month sense she left. She still has yet to return. I look up and see Bardar looking at me,
“Get ready for school” was all he said. I groaned and flopped back onto my bed, trying to get back to sleep. But Bardar wouldn’t let that happen. He flipped my mattress - I mean really flipped it! I crawled out from under my bed and glared at him,
“loser” I said to him as I pushed him out of my room and shut my door. I am older now. It’s been two years sense Scorpion started living with us. I was 7 then. I am now 9. But it’s been a year sense she left that day. And she has still to return. I got dressed and walked downstairs. I yelled at my brothers that I was leaving now, and slowly started the walk to school. I gazed up at the tree and smiled softly and waved to it. People walked by and stared at me. All I did was shrug,
“My sister used to sit up in that tree, until she left” was all I told them and they stopped staring. I kept walking until I reached school and slowly made my way inside. Not knowing that the one person I was waiting for - that Bardar was waiting for - would turn up, when we all needed someone the most.
I walk sitting on a swing when it happened. I got punched. I scrambled to my feet and glared at the person, but instead of the person who hit me, I was staring into the back of another. As the person spoke, their voice sounded familiar,
“Leave her alone. Let me guess, Sparkles younger brother?” was what the voice had said. Suddenly everything came all at once and I ran and gripped onto the person’s leg. They seemed shocked but I didn’t care. My questions came to mind. The ones I wanted to ask, but all I could do was ask one question, I was fearing the answer to,
“why did you go?”
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:28:43.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 18
Chapter Eighteen : Don’t Belong
Scorpion’s POV
As I sat on Bardar’s bed thoughts entered my mind, I knew I couldn’t stay up here forever, but somehow I thought I could. I figured that they’d forget about me. Oh how wrong I was, I glared at the door when Crow opened the door holding up a knife,
“these locks are so easy to pick” was all he said to me. I glanced at him and picked up the nearest thing (Which would be Bardar’s alarm clock) and threw it at him hitting his head as I screamed at the top of my lungs,
“GET OUT!” I kept screaming the line over again as I continued to pick stuff up from around Bardar’s room and threw them at my brother. Crow dodged them, I knew he would. He walked up to me and grabbed me up the upper arm dragging me out of the room, “Let go of me!” I said with hate in my voice as I started pounding on his arm trying to get him to released his grip. He led me down the stairs and towards the living room where Bardar and Dusk were drawing and pushed me onto the couch. As soon as he let me go I jumped over the couch and ran upstairs and slammed the bedroom door shut.
I walked towards the window, opened it and climbed out. I climbed the side of the building and pulled myself up onto the roof where I laid down and stared at the sky. I listened to the sounds around me, calming me. How dare he touch me. I was fuming with anger, anger of everything that happened. I listened to the children play a few houses down from where I was. I heard the bird chirp in a soft song. I heard the wind rustle the leaves of the trees. I felt myself getting calmer. But I was still angry. Tears sprung to my eyes as I finally let it all go. I finally cried. I cried for the loss of my home, I cried for the loss of my parents. I cried for the loss of my brother, and I cried for the loss of myself.
As I cried it began to rain, but I didn’t want to go inside. I heard Kaga come home, and I heard muffled talking from inside the house. I assume they’re looking for me. But I didn’t care. The tears kept coming, they wouldn’t stop. They mingled with the rain as the weather matched my sorrow. I sat up and buried my face into my hands and let out a heartbreaking sob as my shoulders shook. I tried to stop, but I just couldn’t. I cried for hours before I finally fell asleep, curled up shivering from the rain, tears streaming silently down my cheeks and onto the roof.
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Sun shone through the window as I opened my eyes and slowly sat up. However, I was stopped when someone pulled me down and pulled me towards them. I turn my head and see Bardar resting peacefully beside, I couldn’t help but smile. My smile faltered however when I realized that I was in nothing but a over sized shirt. The last thing I remembered was crying on the roof. I try to get out of bed but am once again pulled back, this time Bardar turned onto his side and pulled me close to him so my back was pressed against his torso, his voice coming as a whisper,
“you fell asleep outside in the rain, and your clothes were soaked. Nothing happened.” was what he said. I bolted up when the door slammed opened and turned sharply causing me to fall off the bed with a loud thud. I peek over the bed and see Kaga standing in the door way,
“What do you think your doing?!” he yelled out. I ducked back behind the bed and tried to disappear from him. I heard footsteps walking closer towards the bed then they suddenly stopped as Bardar spoke,
“You idiotic excuse for a brother! GET OUT!” he roared as he threw his alarm clock at him. The same alarm clock I threw at Crow. I heard Kaga mutter something as Bardar reached over and picked up his clock and looked at it and sneered, “you sorry excuse for flesh, what the hell are you doing barging in here at 6am? Are you stupid?” I heard him say with hate in his voice. I thought it was time I tried to make them stop and I stood up only to see that Kaga made his way around to where I was and smacked me across the face causing my head to snap to the side. I stared at the wall in shock as tears sprung into my eyes. I didn’t look Kaga in the face as I spoke my next words,
“I hate you” was all I said as I pushed past Kaga and went towards the door picking up a pair of Bardar’s pants and a tank top of mine as I left the room. I could hear punches being thrown and Bardar’s yells as he beat his brother. I went into Dusk’s room to get dressed then as silently as I went in, I left the child so she could sleep and went downstairs.
The yells from upstairs had stopped and I seen Kaga limp downstairs his arm lying limp at his side at an odd angle. He had a black eye, a bloody lip and his nose was broken as he stormed out of the house. I stayed where I was and looked out of the living room window. I figured Bardar had fallen asleep again, because he never came down after his brother.
So there I sit, on the couch watching the sun rise higher in the sky, just waiting and thinking. I looked at a picture that Dusk had drew of her and her brothers. A tear escaped my eye and slid down my cheek, I knew now. I finally knew, I didn’t belong here.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:27:13.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: CHapter 17
Chapter Seventeen : Bardar’s Limits
Bardar’s POV
I seen her in the tree when I got back from work, it seemed like she didn’t notice me. She usually waves at me from the tree. I turn hearing footsteps behind me seeing Crow walk out and look up at Scorpion,
“She’s been up there sense they came back” was all he said to me. I climbed the tree slowly and sat in the branch above hers careful not to wake her up. I watched Crow walk off and became concerned for Scorpion. Her face was peaceful even in sleep, but I knew it was only a matter of time before she woke up and walked around the house like a zombie. I leaned back against the tree trunk then dropped down when a few of Kaga’s stupid annoying friends came up. They demanded that I go get my brother, that they needed to talk to him. I raised an eyebrow,
“whatever do you need him for? As far as I’m concerned you don’t belong here” I said it coldly and glared when Kaga came out of the house telling me to stop acting like a jerk. I scoff and walk inside and was shocked when Dusk ran down the stairs and jumped at me. I caught her with ease, but my worry grew when I saw that she was crying. I asked her what was wrong and she began to tell me the events that took place. My anger grew with each word she spoke. They dare touch her, I think not. I heard the door open and prayed that it wasn’t Kaga and his friends, I was about to say something when I seen Scorpion walk upstairs and shortly hearing the door close. I looked down at Dusk and seen her worried glance.
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It was hours sense Scorpion went upstairs, I had Dusk settled in the living room with paper and pencils and got her to draw quietly. I went to the kitchen and almost growled seeing the mess that my brother left. I started cleaning the mess. I heard Dusk hum while she drew. My worry became more when Scorpion still didn’t come down. Was she even in the house anymore? My question was answered when I heard footsteps coming down the stairs. I heard Dusk talk to Scorpion and heard Scorpion’s soft voice reply to the small 7 year old child.
I turned around seeing Scorpion and Dusk drawing together. I shook my head and went back to cleaning. After a short time I finished and turned to walk into the living room. I stop when I see Dusk crying. I was about to go out and see what's wrong, but Scorpion turns to Dusk and holds her gently, rocking her. I stand and lean against the frame of the door and smile at them. "Seems you know how to comfort a kid well enough. I heard what happened. I'm sorry, even though I know I wasn't involved.”
I saw Scorpion nod slowly and stand up, mumbling something about needing to think. She walks upstairs and closes the door to my room. I look at Dusk and try to get her to go back to drawing. I walk upstairs and knock on the door.
"Can I come in?" I hear a soft shuffle and hear the door unlock. It opens a little and Scorpion motions for me to come in. I walk in and look around. "Are you ok?" Scorpion shakes her head.
"Not really. And I don't want to talk about it." That's all I was left with. When she didn't say anything else I took that as my cue. So I stood and let myself out of the room. As soon as I closed the door, I heard it lock. I walk downstairs, thinking. Dusk looks up at me and smiles as only a young child can. I chuckle despite my mood and sit down, picking up a few pencils and drawing with Dusk.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:26:05.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 16
Chapter Sixteen : Secrets come out.. almost
Scorpions POV
I heard the patter of tiny feet padding across the carpet towards the room I was in - so happened to be Bardar’s room - and I turned my gaze from the window where I sat on the ledge and turned and smiled,
“hello Dust, how are you?” I asked the child cheerfully. It would seem to anyone who looked at me that I had gotten over the betrayal of my brother. But I had not, and I knew that Bardar and dust both were worried about me. I smiled as she pattered towards me and climbed onto my lap, settling herself as was our custom of late,
“When’s brother Bardar coming back?” she asked me, her eyes gazing towards mine. I sighed not knowing how to answer and told her he’d be back soon and that she should be asleep (It was well into early morning). She shook her head, “I can’t sleep.. I already tried.” I chuckled at her response but said nothing to get the child to go back into her bed. In honest truth I couldn’t sleep either. Knowing Kaga and Crow were in the room across from me was worrisome.
An hour later I felt Dust slump against me - she finally gave into the sleep that called for her. I picked her up and took her to her room and tucked her in, kissing her forehead like my mother used to do to me when I went to bed, and made sure the blankets were snug against her. I then turned and walked back to Bardar’s room and resumed my position of sitting on the window ledge just staring into the starless sky. Thoughts consumed my mind. Thoughts strayed from their line and went into the forbidding bounds that were my dreams.
Soon I felt myself get picked up by someone and laid on a bed and felt someone climb in next to me. In my haze I subconsciously moved towards the body next to me and curled up in a ball. It would be a surprise in the morning to whom I would find.
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Rays of sun shined in through the window arousing me from my dreamless sleep as I moaned softly and buried my head into the source of warmth, sleep clinging to me. I heard a soft chuckle and I opened my eyes looking towards the one who fully awoken me. I was shocked to find Bardar looking down at me. I quickly scrambled out of bed - or I would have had I not been tangled in the blankets - and ended up falling on my rear landing on the floor causing Bardar to laugh. I glared at him and curled up on the floor and tried to go back to sleep. It was much too early to be up and about. His voice was heard close to my ear,
“get up” I jumped surprised that he snuck up on me and smacked my head against his causing me to curse loudly. I glared at Bardar then blinked when a bundle of limbs found their way over to me and jumped on me. I smiled softly as I hugged the child in greeting.
“Can we go to the park today?” Dust asked me and I agreed by nodding and standing up. I noticed that I had fell asleep in my clothing from yesterday and grabbed a pair of Bardar’s pants and a shirt of his (for I was too lazy to go search through mine) and went into the bathroom and changed. Dust giggled seeing me in the over sized clothing that was her older brothers. I grabbed her hand and peeked outside seeing if Kaga’s door was opened. To my great sadness I had chosen the wrong time to open the door at the same time as Kaga. I felt his glare on me before I seen it,
“What. Do you think you are doing?” he asked me with anger in his voice. I took a fear filled step back causing me to hit something. I turned back and saw that Bardar had made his way over to me in a pair of sweat pants, his upper body shirtless. He wrapped his arms around me from behind and rested his head on my shoulder his voice dark and cold,
“She fell asleep waiting up for me to make sure I got in ok, and I didn’t have the heart to move her” he said as I felt the glare between the two brothers. I sigh not wanting to hear them fight and took Dust down stairs where I passed my own brother who had the look of regret in his eyes, I simply ignored all his gestures to be nice. I looked around and sigh then bellowed up the stairs,
“WHERE’S MY SHOES AT?!” I yelled. Hearing Bardar’s reply I quickly found mine and dust’s shoes and quickly got us ready for our ‘girl’ day together. I watched her run ahead of me looking back every once and awhile, or stopping so I could catch up to her. I smiled at her energetic ways, she reminded me of myself when I was that age.
I seen a group of guys up ahead and called Dust back to me, she quickly came. She held my hand tightly as we passed the group staying as close to me as possible. I ignored the smug remarks the guys held towards me simply going on my way towards the park in which Dust wanted to play at. I tensed slightly when they tried to grab at my arms pulling me towards them. Dust held a look of horror and shock written on her face,
“let her go! We were only walking. Please let her go” she pleaded with the guys. Which they ignored and started to kiss at my neck. I stayed tense until they finally left us alone. I looked at Dust and she asked if we could go home. I fully agreed and I got her onto my back as we headed back home, feelings of doubt and fear clear in my eyes.
When we got home Dust ran to her room where she slammed the door shut, where I simply sat on the couch blankly looking at nothing. My back was rigid with fear and anger. Crow came downstairs and sat beside me and stayed quiet. Until finally the silence was broke,
“Scorpion.. I” he started to say and I cut him off saying I didn’t want to hear his lame attempts of getting me to like him again. With that I stood up and walked outside and walked over to my favourite tree in the front yard and climbed onto my favourite branch. My branch as I started to call it was located half way up the tree and was wide enough so I wouldn’t fall off if I chose to lay down. Which is exactly what I did. I reached my branch and laid down along it and gazed at the sky through the leaves. I felt peace enter my body almost instantly. But I still couldn’t shake the feeling of fear from my body. Soon I feel into a restless sleep, waiting for when Bardar got back from wherever it was that he was at.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:24:30.
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Topic: The Unknown
Subject: Chapter 15
Chapter Fifteen : A Futures Look
It was at that time, I knew I was alone, and would be alone for the rest of my life. My brother - my blood - had done the unthinkable, unforgivable act of murder. He had become a blood thirsting killer, grieving wasn’t in his nature anymore, nor was it in mine to forgive him. He had changed so much, and so have I. Even now I remember the pounding steps of my own feet pounding on the streets and I tore out of Bardar’s house and ran. I ran for miles and I wasn’t planning on stopping. I didn’t care if I was never found. My brother had betrayed me. I now knew and understood the look in my parents eyes when I seen them the day my life ended. I was truly alone, and neither Kaga nor Bardar could take that feeling away from me. Yet as I sit and tell my story of pain, I have yet left out the key detail of the story.. My future. It was years that those hateful and pain filled times have come and gone. Yet even still, the pain remains to this day. Even as I sit outside and watch my children run and play happily. The pain returns.
Those times, those horrid times. The days where I could scream and cry, because things weren’t going the way I wanted them. If anyone said life was a big game, they would be wrong. Life is an adventure, whether it be good or bad.. I still can remember…. All those times…
~~~~~~~Crow’s POV~~~~~~~~~~~~
I heard the door slam shut and knew. My secret was out, my sister found out what I was hiding, just like she intended to. I sighs and turned to Bardar, told him I would be back and followed my sister. I knew I had lost her, but somewhere deep down I believed that I could win my sister back - my kind and gentle sister. The sister that I caused to lose everything. She ran for miles, never did I believe that she could run so far and not fall or trip. She never failed to amaze me. Yet she still does as she spun around and caught the side of my face, her words still echoing in my mind,
“I hate you” was what she said. And I knew it to be true. Yet I deserved such cold words thrown at me. “You took away everything I cared about without thinking twice Crow” she continued, her voice becoming sad and solemn. She was hurt, and it was because of me. I looked her in the eyes and knew that just saying sorry wouldn’t take her pain away. My sister hated me.. But I deserved it, oh how I deserved it, and so much more.
“Things have begun, and were done that you can’t change Scorpion” I told her softly. Tears flowed down her face, I hated seeing her cry. I wanted so much to just go back in time and change what I had done. My thoughts clouded my mind, I vaguely heard her speaking to me,
“You left me with nothing but pain” was what I heard through the haze of my mind. And she was right. “you left me.. And took them away” she continued, her voice sounding so far away to my ears. Yet she was standing in front of me her head hanging. It was the look of a broken child inside of a grown body. I had caused my sister to grow up, too fast for her own good. I caused her to become like this, and I felt horrible. I wish I could take her pain away. Her voice cut through my thoughts once again,
“You can’t take back what you did. You left when I pleaded for you to stay where you would be safe. So I wouldn’t have been alone. If you had have stayed when I asked you… If you hadn’t have gone” her voice broke as tears dropped to the ground, “If you had have stayed home.. They would have a fighting chance to protect their lives. But they couldn’t defend themselves when they saw you at the door a blood thirsty gleam in your eyes” she stopped to take a breath, her words cutting me like a knife would, “They couldn’t fight back.. They gave up.. All life.. Because you were their son” her legs buckled out from under her and she fell to the ground sobbing and crying, “they couldn’t fight back” she said sadly.
I wanted to go to her, but her words trapped me, I couldn’t move. I couldn’t go to her. She didn’t want me near her, it was clear now. I took away everything from her, in that one night, she lost more than just her parents and brother.. The scorpion from that night, she lost her calm and caring side. This scorpion in front of me, wasn’t my sister, she was some other being entirely. Now I fully understood,
“you didn’t just lose mother and father, but you lost yourself.. Didn’t you?” I asked her calmly, it finally hit me. My kind and caring loving little sister was gone.. Forever.
Posted on 2006-09-16 at 10:23:20.
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