I can't get over it, and I'm sorry

1. I'm thinking of breaking LKpt5 up into 2 semi-parts :3  22 pages is very, very long, and there is a point at about pg 12 that would work as a stopping point. And even 12 pages is a lot by itself.
Then again, I might just post it all and see what you guys think after the day or week or two it takes to get through it.

2. I'm gonna wait a while to post it either way. We've had enough of Kith lately, I need some Ara and Ch'dau posts in my life.

Alright, I forgot Ara was the best. I'll take the blame for that.

What would he have said?

I was really surprised none of you asked that priest if Kith was alive or where she was when you were locked up. I think I had joked with Olan that you guys didn't really care about her otherwise you would have asked, or some messed up thing like that

But I was really curious what he might have said.

I am so impatient.

Oooofta, yeah, that's really good. I mean awful, sad and all, but really poignant and telling of Ara's own mental state.

I will forever just want to give that little Syl a hug and some chamomile and a big blanket.

Ghost is probably my favorite of all I've shared. Rabbit Hole was close, but Ghost was on repeat for me for weeks and I often, often think about that line, "I'm so scared that I'll end up alone" when writing the tougher parts for Kith.

Plus all of Au/Ra's videos are really interesting to me.

Give me a sad song with a great beat and you've got me.

This song I've had squirreled away for after I had posted the last part of the Little Kithran series in KCandK, when she leaves Calestra for the final time--which I have yet to post. I thought it was pretty well-fitting for that, but with everything that's happened here, it's calling me this way as well.

The song is called Ghost, by Au/Ra and Alan Walker.

I'm losin' touch with everything I know
And I'm so scared that I'll end up, I'll end up, I'll end up alone

You know I'm like a ghost, sometimes I have to fade
And it haunts me that I have to be this way
You say it's gone cold, I say I'll do better
But I always seem to disappear again
You know I'm like a ghost, I see it in your face
And it haunts me that I have to be this way
You say it's gone cold, I say I'll do better
But I always seem to disappear again
You know I'm like a ghost

By the by, when I heard this song at the beginning of November (released on the Death Stranding sountrack) it was the first time I had heard of Au/Ra and afterward scoured her music for something I didn't like, to no avail. Her voice is fantastic, and she releases "secret sessions" which are live or a capella, as with this version of Ghost, just to prove it.

The melting of a bladesinger's sword, the symbolism behind it is devestating.

Just for my own guts--this is after retrieving the blade from stabby girl, chopping off a bunch of Ara's hair, dying it hot pink, and snipping her pointy ears, yes?

Lay it on me.

I'm home sick today so I've got nothing but gut-punching time.

My Bladesinger Lore skill is abysmal, but I think that checks out!

OR maybe it could be fashioned into something one could say, wear, after enchanted. Like, what if it was enchanted with some kind of restoration or healing magic? I don't know a lot about Sae either, but it seems like a Sae thing.

Psh, she's always been the best!

Kith did, but now she's just like, all over the place lol

Just can't lose her too--if so, Kith would lose the last shred of sanity she has left.

I mean, there isn't a lot there either way, but all that is there is obsessed with Davena.

She's pretty neat, you guys.

If you were real you could understand.

Added one last little bit of dialogue at the end of Cloaking Devices to include mention of Saina.

Just thought of Ara with a hot pink bob. I don't know why. Anyway . . . .

Cut off the tips of her ears? :3 Guuuhhhh

I can understand doing that to avoid being hunted, that will be an interesting storyline to unfold *rubs hands together*

Kith will need her Ara though.

"Ara, what tf did you do to your hair?"
"No, no, I told you, I'm Frenchie."
"But . . . you're Ara."
"Yes but call me Frenchie."
"Okaaaay . . . Frenchie, what tf did you do to your hair?"

Oh, wow, the complexity of that . . . .

She does recognize you two though, she recognizes everyone, she just knows it's a ploy because you're all dead--the only reason she would have Aranwen's sword right now is if Aranwen was dead. Aranwen would never leave her sword to the likes of the the D'hurgen priests and their hordes. Trying to convince her you're someone else when she knows who you are might only solidify her belief that you're all pawns set to further mushing her brain.

Oof, yeah, I thought the same thing. I think I misunderstood what you meant initially when said they were for Kithran, but I remember seeing/hearing that part in particular and thinking they could absolutely apply to her in this instance.

She's pretty h y p n o t i c.

Haha another from my youtube list of messed up Kithy brain songs.

Magnetic everything about you
You really got me, now
You took to me so well
Hypnotic taking over me
Make me feel like someone else
You got me talking in my sleep

Hmm, maybe I should starting keeping an ear out for Kithy recovering brain songs.

in FFXIV, with the great soundtrack  Fluffy Nugget Jr (FNJ) is this good squishy boi.

And yeah, perfect for a foundry. Nice and quiet. Our little family would do well recovering there.
If we go this route, I'm seriously going to be doing some trauma recovery research. I'm just thinking about how much of each of them will be left after everything. It's going to be interesting to play out.

I didn't feel like drinking tonight, but Fluffy Nugget, Jr couldn't let a bro drink alone!

He said, "KWEH", which means cheers!

Aaaaawwww! That was really sweet.

Kith's very first truly lucid sentence: "you thought to bring me back from unimaginable trauma by surrounding me with Sylvari?"

Ugh I wrote a whole thing and then my phone was dumb and no the page reloaded and it's all GONE

The gist:

Eol: good lawd with your Denzel and bewbs rant.

That song is SO good for Ch'dau and his --almost-- death experience.

I'd need to do a bit more light light reading, but id be down to rp some trauma and recovery hahaaaa I do like sad stories obviously, but I like a redemption story even better--hence why I'm hoping so much for Ara to push through. But I'm also alright with booping over all th HC stuff also continuing on our merry way. It looks like we have also while to figure it out either way.

Oh, also don't kill my gf please. She so smart, and powerful, and beautiful, and we're very happy together. Thanks.

Rer--that song is so good for an Aranwen able to push herself forward, and yes, I did catch some lines for Kithran in there ;_; coming for me, blade mum?

And those last lines? PERFECT for her:

I will reach into the darkness of my heart

And I will try to find the strength to carry on

Cause I've made it this far